Everything've changed . Your love for me , Change to your love for her . I get drunk because of you , I get sick because of you , & I cried because of you . I'm sick & tired of everything . I feel like dying . Making me so miserable . I hate everything . I hate myself for making Papa they all worried , I hate myself for cant protect my own buddy . I hate myself for being so useless to like someone so easily . & I hate myself for stopping them whacking him . I know they meant good for me , protecting me with all cause , But i dun wan any of them to get hurt , neither i want him to get hurt. I love him , i really do . He let me give up on Mathew , & grew my love for him . Within this short 6month , He make me change , Into a better person , But it'll also be him , to turned me into a Devil . My boy , I'm sorry , But prepared the worse of me . I LOVE YOU .